Umrah trip started with fear.Fear of everything.But I'm so attached to it that I dont wanna go home and just stay there,despite the challenges faced,how dreadful it is just to go masjid due to the crowd and heat.One thing for sure,it really feels like home.

How I wish to fly there every now and then.maybe every year. But then again,I'm not working and maner nak cekau duit?

The immigration had been asking me to change my passport photo.It was 10 years old.Now,almost 21.They started asking me since 2 years ago.The first officer to ask me to change was that Bara guy,Ayie, after I came back from Batam.Yeah,Batam trip changed my face.I underwent comsetic surgery there.Hah,like real.My hidung still kembang.

So,I woke early in the morning with Abah acompanying me,to change my passport photo only to know that I can't anymore must change new passport.So,I had to make to one just in case I got held back the next time I go overseas.I had the photo taken there,cheap,with my green-yellow eyes(original eyy), slanted scarf and red-around-my-eyes.I dunno why.It was a short trip.

Then off to discover the new Geylang and also collect Arnold's awesome chicken. I reached there at 10am sharp and it was JAM-PACKED.Orang-orang ni keluar rumah lepas subuh ke??It was hard to find empty seat at the foodcourt.And when finally got one,had to share it with 2 couples. But the round table was in front of this drink stall.The helper is a hot guy. :)) Despite the hot weather,lack of blowing wind from the nature and the fans,I don't mind sitting there.

Finally,I find comfortable being in pasar geylang.good job to the developer. Hopefully, cleanliness always maintains.Good hygiene practised.

Okay,I want to go Geylang again.To:
- check out the hot guy-got indian blood definitely.
- buy lots of tudungs at $5 each
- buy seluar kueh pau.

I dunno whether Hidayah Wahid's nasi Ayam Penyet still there or not.Haha. Macam kedai dia gitu.

I really miss school life.he entire 13 years of education;full-time. Not that right now,I'm schooling part-time but it really feels like part-time. So the rest of the time it's free.I know I used to dread going to school early in the morning, managed to wake up automatically at 5.30 everyday.Seeing those faces in front of the class,all that studying and homework but on the bright side,you get to meet your cliques.And after school,loiter around the neighbourhood even when big exams were around the corner.No matter how hard school life used to be and each time you complain about it, it was beautiful.Those innocent adolescent days,arguments with your friends; the "geng-tak-geng" season and how you made up with them; when PE was really fun running around cones except that I used to hate 1.6km run-I was FREAKING SLOW despite being thin.

But now,those friends now have their lives to live,went separate ways though we do somehow update or poke our noses into their lives through FACEBOOK, and those closer to you,you only get to meet them once in awhile when they're free. Other than that,you're practically on your own.Worse when you enter working life.Those colleagues looked like zombies in the morning,dragging their feet to work.And the ones who rushes to the office to have their card punched if they're hourly waged. I was one of those.

Haiz.I'm just bored.Must get ready for driving.

I need to work-out a little.For a start,I should walk long distance,maybe to Hougang Mall.I planned to do it today.But laziness got me as I watched MJ on youtube(again for the second round now that he's gone) on all the allegations on him.Man,people just couldn't leave him alone and jealous of his success.

Nothing to update really as all I did this week so far is watching tv,watching MJ on youtube and I only get to drive next week.And I shall continue my fast tomorrow and visit the library.And hoping for Kumon to call me,please Dear God.

Pastamania-Gloria Jeans-Esplanade.
So damn malas nak type.

MICHAEL J. JACKSON. (1958-2009)

Who would have thought that he's gone this soon? Well,he's gone too soon.I know I'm late but I was sad for his passing.I practically had no mood whenever he came across my mind or come on TV.I could even cry.Tributes from all over the world.Prayers and thoughts for him,may Allah bless his soul.

As all his life, he's been burdened by the public roars, gossips and all sorts of critiques not forgetting the illnessses he had with all the prescribed drugs he consumed leading him to have a seemingly weak,frail body. Plus,the energy-consuming routine dances he practised,could have eaten him.

I'm sure now people will remember him for his amazing music career that changed history and his humanity.No one can ever replace the one and only king of pop. A TRUE LEGEND.

Twitter has taken my life from blogger.it's more fun to type small little updates every now and then.So people,join twitter.lets follow each other.
Now,all i need is Itouch.I can do EVERYTHING there.on the go.

Today,driving was good.I found my confidence and i dont stall at junctions now except one;i jerked a little. Pretty comfortable with turning without apek's help.getting ready with the clutch and accelerator before green light come on so i dont get kanchiong.and apek complimented that i improved.and i think i know where he lives.and he inserted a burned disc of IKLIM's songs just now and asked me whether i know it.so,all in all,i'm pretty much fine on the road now without any parking knowledge.haha

Next lesson on thurs.Excited!

Speedymaid release another parody.
Jai Ho - Pussycat Dolls & A.R. Rahman.
This is a must watch. I can guarantee you will laugh cos I laugh non-stop whenever I watch it.

Recent events.


Saw Transformers.Well,I'm not a fan.


In and out of chalet TONS of times;all blom mandi.


Locked him early in the morning.




Paman doing the satay.


Ros' Raffles performance.


The Loyang,the Coral,the MJ



Celebrating Paman's birthday.


The Seoul Garden Night.


Lastly,Imma and I came up with these yesterday.

Clever Monkey Sebung is good even though I don't know anything about gamelan music. But the monkey and witch looked freaking scary.Kudos to Gamelan Singamurti. Yeay to Ros and Isaac(who looked a little off in this area but his passion is there and a little selenger too.hehe)!

Upon exiting,Julie saw my pump's sole peeling.Gah. Second time man.So we headed down to Fareast to get that urgent need shoes despite having decreasing savings and the thought of saving some money not going for sushi.Grr.Lucky the new pumps I got cost 15 bucks.Hope it will last longer than lousy cotton on primos.

GSS is hitting bad on me.But the stuff not interesting leh.But first, I need a job and go for PC show.I want to see if Syed Acer is still around.haha.

So, I told Julie the story.I don't know what to say.

Weekend spent at my aunt's chalet at Downtown.I thought it's only a room but it's actually 3! Packed my little brown slingbag with another set of clothing,if I happen to stay over.Another 2 nights.Without any toiletries (read:any),I was going through a little challenge with hygiene.haha.Survivor in a chalet.haha.

Event was to celebrate a birthday party of a 13 year old,chipped in with a couple matchmaking projects,turned out more of my aunts' celebration as those who came were her friends and kinda mine too,since I know them too when I helped her at her canteen.All this while,they've seen me in tudung.And being in a chalet,I really treat it like a chalet,meaning to wear things slack,not as a guest,more like tulang belakang for the party;my cousins,bro and I,barbequed chicken.Anyway,ya, wear real home clothes without tudung,so I intend not to meet eyes with the pakciks especially.BUT(and there's always a BUT),my aunt HAD to POINT TOWARDS ME saying,
"Tu Syadza.Harini tak pakai tudung.Selalu dia pakai kan.."
And eyes on me.And what to do,I had to acknowledge them lah,chat for awhile. I can never see them the same way and I think neither can they,as the only place I see them is at their workplace in their work clothes.

And,I had to kinda speak makcik2 with them.which annoys my brother.haha.

As usual poking my nose into other people's lives,I happened to see this dove thing on Diah's blog. So just to have fun,I tried it.


This is when I'm bald.


I've always thought short hair rocks!


Member Lorong Belakang Kucing.


I kinda lost my eyes here.


Having curly hair my entire life and being tired of it,I think I dont mind this hairdo!


So, this is what Bimbo looks like...hmm

Well, first time sitting at a makan place,Cafeela, in Jalan Kayu. Jalan Kayu is like behind my house(figuratively) yet I've never been there.It was my first time,taking 103 towards the North.Usually I would be in a vehicle,whizzing past Jln Kayu.Not a favourite place;as the condition of that area is very Msia and very foreign and dark at night. And entering the road to Seletar Camp just to loop at night,really freaked me out.Imagine camp = ghost stories and all weird stuff.

Makcik-ly speaking, Kalau tak ye-ye,tak kuase lah nak pergi.

So,the pupose for thatt visit up North was to celebrate my uncle's 49th birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY,PAMAN! Semoga Allah panjangkan umur,murahkan segala rezeki. We all love you. :)

Come June,there's tons of SALES!!
SALES I wanna visit: Most importantly, John Little Expo Sale
PC Show (A must-go)

There's also Ros' perfomance. If my dear Paman wants to go Batam,I'll be GLAD to join.haha.And,I'm praying hard for my other Paman so that saham dia naik so he'll belanja Sakura.

And I want that Sony's heart MP3!!Good for jogging.I'll start jogging if I have that. :P

God,all this random shits at 1.45am!

Updates so far:

Exams - see LCC again next year.(unfortunately)

Sit at home and cleaned my room

Shifted the furnitures

Drving - until NEE SOON man.Those roads near Expressways and unknown roads.U-turns too.Coke Lorries obstructing the main roads TWICE,making me very kan-chiong.

Cut/rebonded hair - finally had the guts to do it.

Eye makeup - done by Julie

Sore eye - could be caused by eye makeup(my eyes very sensitive and very myopic)

Fever - muscles lethargy,strains hot-headed at 38.5deg.

Pespiration - it seems i couldnt tahan even a little sweat.I need the fan badly.

Upcoming:

LADIES NIGHT!!!

I must share this cute toddler again.Now,he's super cute.He know how to say some words already.And he go for cheap thrill.Cos he's entertained even when I played with my tissue.TISSUE leh..and he's too cute,smiley and innocent-faced to be scold.



And yesterday was Kak Long's Wedding.My 40-over-year-old cousin in Johor.Like finally, cos all her younger siblings dah beranak-pinak.And meeting her husband for the first was a shocker to me.Her brother-in-laws are those decent looking kind and her father orang alim.So when they came out,I saw her husband,with tied up hair and it's dyed,like a rocker.But still not bad ah. Hope she have a great,beautiful marriage life ahead and it's pleasant to see she has found companion.


Kak Long and Elias.

Hell,yeah I'm now rooting for Danny Gokey.It's expected that Matt would be out this week but seeing Adam Lambert in the bottom 3,no bottom 2 even, was really shocking. Never did that ever happened to him the past weeks.Skali,kena bottom 2 seh.

And,Allison and my bro are TWINS lain mak lain bapak.Such long distance twin. Both of them were born on 27 April 1992.

So meet up with 0.8GM was fun as always.But today,Imma was exceptionally HIGH and NONSENSE.haha.And Scrabble card game was really FUN.We were competing against each other but being bimbos,we helped each other.

WANG BESAR! WANG BESAR! WANG BESAR!

Oh,and the other day I was in the bus home,I saw this hot fair malay guy waring sporty type of shades.First glance,I thought he was JAMAL ABDILLAH! The younger times one lah.I numbed and stunned for awhile.

ANd I just wiki-ed BIMBO.It's actually for MEN.First was baby boy then its English usage was to mean STUPID MEN. But now,opposite happen.

Happy 17th (wahlau eh.so fast.) to dear action-budak-baru-masuk-poly brother.
A mini-tiny birthday celeb for him with tons of food almost macam kenduri or party.haha.There's family feast from KFC, 2 medium pizzas,a small 500g cake, mum-cooked chicken rice for family of four.

I'm worried about everything that at times,I shiver.Not feeling cold but my hands tremble for no apparent reason.My body ache.Must be the effect of staying too long in the house; no communication with the outside world that much.Probably it's below than usual.As much as I feel like going out,I do feel lazy to get dressed and go out and futhermore,I've got tons of revision to do.you know, outside world = a world of distractions.My home = me and the world of televised media with notes to revise.

So far,I've covered soci theories and globalisation for soci.Organisation soon to cover.I just need to reread again to internalise the concepts,I hope and hopefully it stays there until exams.

God,waking up at ONE PM is really bad!
Anak dara mana bangun pukul satu ah?!?
Tsk.Must change.

I want to cut my hair freaking short again.Like the previous haircut.Just great for this hot season.And my hair will stop falling,easier to wash and dry faster.I shall straighten it again maybe.Yes,I shall do that.It feels heavier now,anyway.ALl I have to do now is wait for next week,at least.

I'm saddened by Anoop's departure from American Idol.But being in the bottom two with Alison and not Matt,it was so damn obvious who was to leave then.I knew all along that he can never make it to the finals but I still gave him moral support though and really wished him to go as far as possible.At least he's in the top 6. All of them are talented,no doubt, but I just can't stand Adam.He do sounds good but when it comes to the shrieking part,my ears bleeds.he made it sound black metal-ly and he's got small eyes with big cheeks.no offence.Danny's good but I kept feeling that there's this barrier in his throat that prevents his "real" voice from coming out.it sounded like tak cukup like that.Just like Gary Barlow in the 90's.But now he sounds GOOOD. Notice that Danny has such pretty eyes!

I hate that Ma Li'an girl in tables of glory.Aiyoh. Jiajun,mulut macam kucing,seriously.

Exams are really really around the corner.Gah.My first exam in SIM for real.Ni kes hidup mati punyer.ARGHH.Seeing those muggers studying in the school compound alleviate the stress level.Yes,by just seeing them.First,there's a whole lot of people on benches all over the school.Then,another whole lot taking up the cubicles in the library.All's full.All gearing up for exam.

My case,all messed up.I study a little bit here and there.The more I think of what I am to study,the more I feel that I haven't get anything on my head.

And it seems History repeats itself,yet again.I'm all head-ached now.Oh the damn exams.

Such a nice weather to sleep in longer after the entire week of drought;such overwhelming heat,the UV rays or whatever shit that's got into my forehead that got awful headache.PLUS the stress and the madness I'm going through for exam.I talked to myself alot and in my head too.

And yesterday was great.All Poly students started school especially the yr 1s,all geared up and styled for their first day.Including my brother.I know for sure, in time to come, they can't be bothered and come to school with slippers,even though it's in clementi,like me.Haha.Oh,but my point is,now I have to share my journey with these countless people.Surely,it will be more packed cos majority poly students are 90s babies,and they add up to the late 80s baby boom.Soon,you will not be able to see school kids that much due to self-proclaimed stop-at-one policy.It's ever decreasing young population and we,ever-ageing population.

But never mind,I only have 2 more revision classes and that's it for the year and getting all ready for exams.

So,yesterday Maths class was quite intense;doing all the questions I forgot how to do, that made me cracked my brain and it bleed,temporarily pasted the cracks with yam pau,a little better but not enough,and too add to this misery was the packed bus,the stuffiness,the heat,the odour especially the mamak one; no offence, but I just couldn't tahan.So I took oout my saviour, my cucuk hidung and halls candy. I wanted to puke seh.

Are Singaporeans getting richer at this recession period or is the prices of cars are falling? lately,I've been seeing an increaing number of BMWs especially, on the road than I ever did before.I remembered 2 years ago(God,it's been 2 years since I left school) when Syaza and I went to Bras Basah's Mac or Marine Parade library to study,which we later on get distracted an started counting cars.She and her BMWs while I counted Merc.It was quite challenging to spot them then.

But now,woah.It can be easily spotted.I bet Syaza would be jealous of these high-end people.But now,I guess not as she found a new BMW love.haha.Never on a Singapoore road,yet.So,ya.Nowadays,I've been scanning cars on the road.I used to scan at their plate numbers.haha.No,I don't play 4D.Just like to see the new plate numbers.

All these due to economy changes.I suppose when the COE was just $2,these people rushed down to get BMWs.Thus,the rapid increase in the number of BMWs on the roads.

Today's Sociclas with Gosling was awesome.She's good and super fun at 62.It's just that at times, she mumbled or speak too fast in her British accent,that make things unclear.Julie and I had good laughing time seeing her antics.I bet tomorrow with Steve Taylor would be great too.Another laughing session looking at his gestures.haha

With so much meet-ups and 21st parties coming,I presume no studying time.hah.No lah,it's just me.As exams are nearing,the more I procrastinate.For soci especially, I'm so not ready.But amazingly,my organization essay which I merely,do research and copied and write the points in order,I scored quite high.And I didnt even finish the essay.

Yesterday,met up with Hidayah to FEP and got me converse high cut at 20 dollars. Now,I'm wondering when to wear it.It must be the time not visiting other people's house.Definitely.

Interesting things happened when it's time to go home.As I took bus home after GM usual meet up,and after Farhan left,I was left alone waiting for the bus.I can't help thinking why random pakcik like to come up to me and chat.It happened yesterday.This little pakcik was walking towards me and asked me whether I've seen a limo before.I know what's a limo,seen it but not in real life.SO,yesterday was the first.So,there's a limo parked in front of Esplanade's entrance.As he was talking,my mind was asking "Is he gonna ask me to ride in it? " Haha.Some more,he was wearing Golf house polo;expensive shop.I was ooh and ahh-ing all the time.Nak step budak BODHOH jap. Luckily,he took off.

And in the bus,Banglas sat all around me.And I was reminded of Imma's incident.haha.
And along the lorongs in Geylang,they were all seemed very foreign as in it doesn't even looked like Spore.And near one of the bus stop,I saw this old man standing on a grass patch,a little hunched.And holding his crotch.Then,I realised he was actually PEEING lah.dang.Cannot blame.he's old and cannot hold his bladder or nyanyuk.Hahaha.

See,interesting I tell you.

Happy 21st to this makcik at last.
So,with GM, I'm the youngest of the lot.Heee~

So far,the weekend was great.Stats classes with external lecturer who came to revise.She's a greek with big hair.First impression,like Einstein.But I like the way she explains things;can be understood even though her greek accent pekat.At times,I thought she spoke greek.Her "W" she pronounced as "Tabliu".

Well,I'm looking forward to a pure Englishman's accent.I hope at least one of them does have it.

Nurul's party was great.Her food was awesome.Especially her bubur hitam.SEDAP!! All night,I was menyantan aje.And hot hot chicken was good too.But she must improvise more to be in par with OLD CHUNKY.Haha.

Looking forward to this weekend pulak. :))

So,this explains it.I went to the IT fair again and got myself a mini acer aspire one.My way was kinda smooth appaerently considering the overwhelmed crowd.Reason?I wasn't from the MRT side.Otherwise,I'll be part of the jam-packed crowd;not moving.

Sadly,Syed Acer didn't attend to me.Not because he didn't approach,his colleague directed him to an apek customer.But at the end,he smiled at me!! :)

Ok,ini cerita dah berzaman,I know.

Anyway,Sunday was WWW day with Julie.If I know the type of tickets I got,I would have ajak more people seh.Monday,met Hidayah to get our overdued pay from Teresa.And yesterday was 0.8GM meet up.We did the usuals;eat,eat,arcade,eat.And arcade we played more in addition to the always Daytona.I played Guitarfreak after seeing Farhan playing the drums.Geram dah lama tak main game ni.And Hidayah suggested para para;our virgin try.And it only cost 50cents.I remembered it cost 2 dollars before when it was 'in' last time.

And today,it was back to school.

I guess I'm clever enough that I skpped soci mock today.Apparently,I was already late cos I was only at AMK and it was already 9.30am and paper start at 10.So, ape lagi,skip lah.Haha.So, met Julie at AMK to study.While waiting for her I made some friends there.And we had GUINNESS egg and toast.SEDAP.

Then,a trip to empty COURT and to the library.Instead of absorbing soci stuff,I learnt dating tips.Haha.Which we tried during the later part of the day.Julie tried 'open palm' on Isk.She looked like Cik Leh if you need to know.So you can imagine how she did it.Haha. I tried 'buying time' on Syed Acer.I like Acer and Syed Acer.

Also,Julie learnt how to video-cam from a Mak Nyah book I found and speak Tagalog. I dunno what's so funny about today but we really laughed alot.

I wanna get a notebook!

Lazyness empowered me thus the current blog.Past week was eventful almost the whole week.Considered eventful since I've been lazing around at home most of the time before that and that I 've no time to wash the rendam-ed clothes from weekend until fri.

So,my prelims are still ongoing.No confidence and no anxiety equals no results in the paper.Just wait and see.I've got to get my motivation,the built-up stress that I had early this year and the drive.Come on,man.Someone,please push me to study.Grr. I know the papers are reasonably easy IF I study.When I read,I had the gist here and there,but no revision,all is gone my friend.All is gone.

SO WAKE UP! SOMEONE SLAP ME.

Stats paper is supposedly doable.But being a lazy bum,I didn't study or even open the book until this morning.And during the exam,I was stumped by it.I feel stupid suddenly.why?I TOTALLY forgot the formulas.Even the ones that was supposed to be at the back of my mind.

After months(*whisper seven*)of not really exercising,apart from the Great Eastern 10k walk for me and ocassional 2.4k at my own pace that is run-walk-walk-and-walk, today was the first severe sweating session.Haha.I died after the first 5 mins we played.I was the defender and usually defenders don't do much,but hell,it tired me out.Subsequently,I got the momentum and could tahan longer.And without any warm-up and cool-down,expect aches and sore tomorrow.

I need more exercise session.Though I can run,I always find excuses to avoid it and feel it a chore.So,I need these game sports to sweat everything out and eliminate the chore-thinking.I can feel fat bulging all over.

Hidayah,kiter main badminton??
Oh ya,my racquet is with....

I found my twin.
this girl from Disney's Minutemen movie.

Chelsea Staub

I'm homey for most days this past two weeks.Apparently,I've gastric.Funny how I'm down with that when I have no problem eating.I forgot to ask the doc whether it could spread to other people.My dad got it first.Then onto me and my bro.And I didnt know gastric could be this agonizing.I could almost cry to sleep,cos it attacks me majorly at night causing me to have very painful abdomen and lower back.I hate it when I got woken up in the middle of the night cos it hurts trying to sleep again.

All this results in me slacking around,curling my body like a prawn and of course not studying.And first prelim paper is just next week.It's econs somemore.

Activities involved:
1)Prawn fishing
2)Rock-climbing
3)Cycling
4)Bowling
5)Daytona-ing
6)Ice-skating
7)Beaching

Yeay,I've cleared one of my planned activities.Julie,Rose and I went cycling. With the 2 hours given for renting bicycles,1 hour spent on pushing around bicycle and playing at te playground.It was cool,fun;with the windy and sunny weather and no crowd.Now,my butt's aching.I guess my butt's not thick enough to refrain from aching due to this.

Oh well.Tomorrow's another day of fun-filled and knowledge-based activities.

Some photos.The rest are in FB including the ultimate video. :P

I had my go-out-and-get-fresh-air morning doing some arms exercises at the exercise station here with my mum.She's ever so friendly and made quite a few acquaintances. And she's surprised to see the amount of elderly around my area ONLY.And also the amount of foreign talents here.And Loretta's hometown mates were having basketball game this morning.The male counterpart I mean.The females,busy taking care either the elderly,or the toddlers.

And I saw hot guy in the train home just now. :] It's not that I don't see any but it's been quite some time that I see one of this standard.Usually,I glanced and I won't look again.But this is different.Hehe.What more,he was sitting directly opposite of me. :P

But now,I forgot how he look already.haha.But there's the metrosexual element.

This is Pocoyo.
I love him.
He's too cute please.



Anyway,my lectures are officially over.

It seems that there's quite a number of beings being sick over the weekend.
heng,I wasn't alone. :P

So,I've been sick over the weekend.It started from tummyaches to headaches.There's a lot of going on between these two aches.Yu couldn't imagine what I was feeling and thinking.Gah.It was bad.Until I had nightmares.You know lah,my imagination's very wild.The causes might be school-exam stress and the overload-different food intake last week.Thanks sushi.

Anyway,back to school today.I skipped half a lecture since it's already the last lecture for Maths and I don't wanna squeeze in with 9-5pm adults;or mainly poly kids.
And,I still had the slight headaches from this morning and I don't wanna feel claustrophobic standing at the bustop waiting endlessly for 74 at peak hour so that adds up to the main reasons of why I skipped half the lecture.

So,now I'm trying to write Organisation essay that's been hanging around for too long but I always managed to find distractions.Great.I feel like watching movies now.

Hei Sushi, Wasabeeee(b)??

0.8GM plus Siti.It was fun with all the pea-flying event and daytona championship and NBA league and bola-bola lain yang sewaktu dengannya.The only time we didn't have coffee,even a little bit.Hah.I need more hangouts-if possible not money involved.Haha.

My suggested plan to destress for the upcoming exam:
Activities involved:
1) Prawn fishing
2)Rock-climbing
3)Cycling
4)Bowling
5)Daytona-ing
6)Ice-skating (this,not anytime soon as price a little steep)
7)Beaching (i feel like doing this alone and emo.haha)

There's a hidden agenda actually.I need,I mean MUST,shed of fatty fats off my tummy.God,it's bunciting everyday.I was looking through my sec 4 yearbook,I saw my road run pic.I envy my last time.Haha.I was thinner,healthier and sport-ier.Gah,I must say I want my legs back,my calves were smaller and it looked healthy!!!I shall use that as a motivation to get back that "figure".